Friday, July 1, 2016

Fitness Friday: Healthy is as Healthy Does

You might be wondering where I have been and I am ashamed for being such a bad poster.  The last few weeks have been super challenging, including all sorts of adventures: an ER visits (not me) and almost being admitted to the hospital (me).

After a long run last week I knew something was wrong.  I was in a lot of pain and then... well, let's just say there was bleeding.  I couldn't get to the doctor until the afternoon and while they contemplated admitting me, I was told I was not to run or do any rigorous activity until I was cleared.

This was a wild blow.  I really had to wrap my mind around it and to realize this meant NO 5K... a really hard pill to swallow.

I was told by the GI doctor that I could run earlier this week, but to be aware that the bleeding could come back.  And that more testing would have to be done.  I tried to run that day, but I could not go as far as I had been.

It was an enormous stumbling block.  If I have learned anything, it is that running is a very mental sport.  You really have to focus on getting past the voice in your head whispering snidely, "Why the heck are you doing this?"  You have to be able to tune that all out and focus on the positives or even just zoning out all together and daydream that you are somewhere else - doing something else.  So when I was running I kept thinking: about all the things that could go wrong, wondering if it really was worth the health risk, yada yada yada.

Basically I was running my mind not my body.  I was constantly gauging, checking for any twinge of pain, any sign that something could happen, that something was wrong, and that was it.  I made it 22 minutes... not the 28 I wanted to it.  And it kicked my rear BAD.

The meme you are momentarily going to hear about *rolling eyes*
That same late afternoon that I went to see the GI doctor, I was scheduled to go to a pre-diabetes clinic, because my fasting numbers have been a little high.  I don't know if you could even imagine how defeated I was feeling at this point.  I sat through 2 hours of hearing about the dangers of diabetes, which I don't think they even touched on.  I have seen diabetes first hand, had gestational at least twice, and I don't know how seriously these people in the class were taking it.  I listened to the nutritionist bash Paleo and make fun of people who use it and then tell you that 1 cup of rice is equal to 1 cup of sugar.

Honestly, I don't think she knew what Paleo was.  It sounded to me like she was talking about Atkins.

I also learned that all my numbers are good.  That I really only have two things to watch for and I am NOT pre-diabetic.  But, boy, it was hard to focus on the "NOT" part.

Yesterday, it all kind of accumulated into a bit of an explosive moment.  Tony was saying something about what he had read in a running magazine and that maybe we were eating too much protein while some sweet kid was throwing this huge Mickey Mouse toy in my face.  He was honestly just playing with his brother who was sitting next to me but there were elbows flying at my face and and black and white Mickey Mouse bits zooming in and out of my vision.

I had a little moment of "ENOUGH."  Everyone looked at me like I was pathetic, sad, and mean.  It was suggested that perhaps I should go for a short run.


I got on the treadmill and ran a mile.  Only a mile and, yes, it nearly killed me.  My knees are hurting today and, you know something?  I am genuinely mad about it.  I am tired of trying to do everything right.  There are too many opinions out there about what is healthy and what isn't.  I am tired of everyone telling me I am sick.  I am tired of trying to figure out if I am eating everything wrong and wondering if it is enough that I am doing the very best I can with what I have been given.

You probably see where I am going with all this.  Being healthy is not easy.  If it were everyone would be.  No one would be eating ding dongs and ho-hos.  We would all be buying out every baby carrot in a 50 mile radius.  You have to do the best with what you have been given.  The  nutritionist at the clinic told us not to be bullied by our food choices (while she had the meme above on the slide show making fun of Paleo, but I will be the bigger person here... I will not speak... I will not speak...).

You see, healthy for one person is not always healthy for someone else.  You have to find what works for you but to be careful and research, too.  Loosing weight is not always the goal.  There are lots of ways to loose weight and only a few healthy ways to loose weight.

I have had to step down my game a bit.  A break from running and weight lifting.  I am thinking it is a good time of year for riding my bike, leisurely through the early morning sunshine.  I need to be a little more Paleo and a little less about the next gimmick to make me loose weight faster.  I need to do what makes me feel healthy.

That is what we all need to do.

Friday, June 10, 2016

Fitness Friday: Run Journal

So, the other day I thought, "Gee, I am about halfway through my C25K.  I'm going to journal right after my run, sweat still dripping down my forehead, exactly what I am thinking after my runs for a week."

I am hoping it will be somewhat entertaining... although, it might be horrifically boring.  Shall we see?

C25K: Week 3 Day 3
June 3, 2016
2.6 miles

Before and after my run
My upper body is a bit sore.  But it feels good.  No I am not a sadist.  Geesh.  I am often surprised by the things that I feel after a run.  My legs never hurt.  Well not anymore.  Maybe they did when I first tried to do a C25K.  Not anymore.  My legs feel like they could go forever and ever.  My legs feel like, yes, you could do a marathon, whatever, no biggie.

My lungs?  Not so much.  There was a point in the middle when my lungs felt like they were growing smaller and smaller every step I ran.  I would look at the clock on the app and think, can I keep breathing for 1:07 minutes?

But there was that beautiful minute there at the end when I realized that the cool down was moments away.  I could almost see it.

 If I can just find a rhythm I think I might be able to conquer the world.

C25K: Week 4 Day 1
June 6, 2016
2.6 miles

Food.  Food.  FOOD!

It is going to be so hot today so I just jumped on the treadmill before it got unbearably hot.  I should have eaten at least an hour before though.  When I first started my stomach was calling me an idiot.  Which was very annoying.

By the end when I was actually able to add an extra 2 minute run and I saw that I went as far as I did last week, I felt much better.

I am a beast.  A very hungry beast.

C25K: Week 4 Day 2
June 8, 2016
2.5 miles

So I have to start by explaining something.  I hurt myself last run.  I didn't realize until later in the day when I tried to sit down and my knee felt like knife went right under my knee cap.  SO, I decided I should ice it and slow down a bit.

This run I did a slower walk and a slower run and it was so much better!  I am going to get a knee brace (I have an old knee injury from high school, and that should help).  I had so much more fun, my breathing was controlled, and I feel awesome!!

I added only 2 min extra to the app for a total of three 5 minute runs and one 3 minute run.

C25K: Week 4 Day 3... HALFWAY DONE!
June 10, 2016
2.38 miles

I feel so good right now.  SO GOOD.  I can't even tell you.  I have had to slow down, which means less milage, but the fact that I feel this good and feel like I could keep going is worth it.  Halfway through my run today, I had this thought.  What if the person I was a year ago could see me right in this moment.  Actually smiling while I am running.  If that Amy could see this Amy, she would be so proud!  She would think how amazing it is that I can do this and love doing this.  That I am strong and able and more than willing!  If that Amy, a year ago, could know that she would be able to run a mile without blinking an eye, would know that she COULD run more than a mile, she would be overcome with joy and encouragement.

Those thoughts made me feel so proud and confident.  I don't know, there was just this moment of thinking, you know, no matter what crap is going on in my life right now, no matter how confused I feel about this or that, right there when I am running, I am accomplishing something.  In that moment I know who I am.  I am a confident, strong, and able to do amazing things.

I can't wait to see what more I can do.

Thursday, June 9, 2016

And The Photos That Didn't Make The Cut...

I have also been known to share the photos that did make the cut for our annual end of the year interviews. This year I got a few good ones... funny enough, it was the elder crew that were much more willing than some of the younger crowd, as you can see!